2021 – Create, Respond, and Adapt In Order to Thrive

I paused writing the monthly newsletter in the new year seeking renewal and inspiration.  As we now approach Spring, so much has transpired for so many.

2021 arrived energetic and productive.  Then the energies started, shall we say, colliding and what ensued provided both challenging and interesting situations and opportunities.  The pressure increased noticeably to constantly support, shore up, and even justify the systems and structures that have been serving us; that appear to have been working (in fact quite well, thank you) for years.  And yet, I experienced being literally compelled to convert many foundational structures that have been supporting me more than adequately for 20 plus years!  I have been intermittently dismayed, stressed and overwhelmed, even sometimes exhilarated, as I endeavored to understand and implement these required changes.

Now, in early March, after considerable reorganization, I realize that I have literally created an upgraded, enhanced, and stronger foundation, to move forward from, which is much more in alignment with who I now am!  These changes and systems have introduced new professionals to support me both personally and professionally; and yes, a few of my favorite go-to people seem thankfully, to be weathering the storm with me.

Sound a bit like preparing for the New Paradigm?  Well yes….; …. of course!

Then why was I, and so many around me who are experiencing the same compelling, even urgent need to restructure, so surprised?  Not sure.  I’ve been “talking the talk”, and “walking the walk”.  Although I now see in retrospect (hindsight is always 20/20), that I’m able to “walk the walk” in fresh, innovative ways with some wonderful new additions at my side.

Up to now, my motto has been Create, Improvise, and Adapt, which like many of you, I’m pretty good at.  Today, this strategy is obsolete and quite frankly, no longer serves us in serving the Light.  We are being called to embrace new ways of being in order to Thrive: Create, Respond and Adapt, in order to Thrive.

I want to unpack this just a bit.

First, we are always creating.  ALWAYS – 24/7.  Given this, it becomes fundamentally important to become conscious of what we are creating and how we are creating it.  This “consciousness thing” is not always easy because it requires two things: being in the now and telling ourselves the truth.  Once we are able to tell ourselves the truth about what we are creating – all of it (not just the good and positive stuff) – then we are ready for the next important step.

Second, respond and adapt.  As we review our results and take ownership for them, we are accurately able to adjust and adapt the next phase of our on-going creation – since we are always creating.  Since we have a realistic measure of our results based on the feedback we are getting, we can now re-align and re-infuse our creation efforts with our true desires.  This just makes sense – getting conscious about creation, and then adjusting and adapting is the fine tuning required to enjoy and embody the results we are seeking.

Finally, the whole purpose of this – the whole purpose of life – is to thrive.  And I mean really thrive – quality of life.  By your standards – not someone else’s.  And especially not based on settling for less because of past “failures”, or starting to live small because you believe you can’t create what you desire.

Just a footnote, none of this is new – it is ancient, true metaphysics, 101.

The important questions to answer today are:
•    How do I define thriving for me?
•    What is the quality of life I seek in my heart of hearts?
•    What structures to I need to change in my life in order to accomplish this?

This is the pressing work for us to master in 2021.  Hope this brief unpacking helps. Covid-19 is still our teacher, and we have the opportunity to learn so much right now at light speed – if we will.

I am looking forward to hearing from you about your process in conscious creation and manifestation of your heart’s desires.

I am holding you in my heart.

A Year in Review – 2020 our Foundation for 2021

This time of year we typically take inventory of the past 12 months.  Both for financial and tax reasons as well as a personal assessment.  As I first contemplated this approaching annual tradition, I was not excited about reviewing 2020.  After all, what is there to review?  C-19?  Lockdown?  So much loss of life – including people we love, lifestyle and life sustainability?  And who wants to review that?

And yet…., I am inviting you to review 2020 because our past and present always provide the foundation for our future.  Here’s the deal, our minds create our thoughts, which create our actions, which in turn create our results and current reality.  While we can’t change what is going on in the world, and we can’t rewind what has happened this year, and we can’t lessen the loss of so much life and of lifestyle that we love, we can acknowledge the loss, grieve where grief is necessary, and then with fresh eyes, take a new look at how we are viewing the past year.  I am encouraging you to join me with new eyes, inviting in a fresh perspective, perhaps changing how we each are viewing 2020.   After all, how we view it today is how we are going to remember it tomorrow.

What do you want your memory to be of 2020?  About the loss and fear that crept in to one degree or another, or about what you learned?  Or the unsuspected opportunities that were provided, and how you have benefitted from your experiences that have strengthened both you and your foundation?

These last few weeks of December provide a pivotal time to put 2020 to rest and welcome in 2021.  It’s up to each of us – we choose.  I choose to embrace 2021 with renewed faith in my heart, and a new commitment to continue to refine, grow and become the best possible version of myself.  Regardless of what is ahead, I know that as I find it within me to approach 2021 with excitement and enthusiasm, that will be reflected back.

I am holding you in my heart.

Wishing you a Holiday Season that is Merry, Bright and filled with Light,

Verla Wade – Guiding Oracle
The Living Light Foundation

Match the Frequency of the Reality You Want

Match the Frequency of the Reality You Want

(Otherwise you receive the frequency of the reality you are at!)

“Everything is energy and that is all there is to it.  Match the frequency of the reality you want and you cannot help but get that reality.” ~ Albert EinsteinIn light of an eventful 2020, I have been contemplating the above statement from Einstein about energy and matching frequency.  I believe it to be profoundly true.  So then, what does it say to us right now as our pivotal year is nearing an end?

I am in the process of presenting for the first time on Zoom a favorite class series that I authored and have taught for many years – Heart-Based Sales and Marketing.  We just completed the 2nd class on Identifying your Ideal Client.  As part of this process, once the participants look at the qualities, traits, values, and behaviors of their Ideal Client, I then ask them to identify where they are not their own Ideal Client!  In other words, where do they not match the frequency of who they want to work with!?!

What a concept right?  And it aligns with Einstein’s statement about energy – match the frequency of the reality you want and you cannot help but get that reality!  Or, paraphrased, the frequency of the reality you are generating, is the reality you are going to get!

‘Match the frequency’ does not mean ‘emulate the frequency’.  Nor does not mean ‘fake the frequency’.  Neither does it mean forge, pretend, mock, or counterfeit the frequency.

‘Match the frequency’ means replicate or reproduce the frequency.  This is not something you can fake.

Here are the Four Pillars to Match Successfully the Frequency of the Reality you Want in your life:

  1. Clean (unpolluted) Will – from which you can harness and set your mind in motion
  2. Solid (firm) Foundation – when you want something new, you need a strong foundation upon which to construct it
  3. Know Thyself (the ancient edict of all true spiritual seekers) – an ability to tell yourself the truth about all aspects of who you are – without any backtalk from the negative ego/shadow self
  4. Clarity of Desire – about what you want and what is most important – also a part of Know Thyself

Here are my suggestions about how to begin this successful implementation for the remainder of 2020, setting the energy of the reality you want to match for 2021:

  1. Life Activation Session – if you are new to the Modern Mystery School this is an excellent place to begin
  2. Resilience Package – if you did not yet partake of this series offered for the first time in August of this year.  It has been getting really great reviews.  Includes: Life Activation, Full Spirit Activation, Hermetic Path Clearing, Blood Healing.
  3. Empower Thyself Class & Initiation – based on the premise that we are Eternal Spiritual Beings Having a Physical Experience, ancient Mystery School teachings are presented about how to be truly successful in the physical life.  In this 2-day class we enter into a deeper conversation about your soul, the Will, building a solid Foundation, Know Thyself, your personal Needs, Wants and Desires, as well as so much more.

I invite you to take a deeper look at the reality you desire in your life, where you may not yet have it, and join me in making the necessary adjustments to match your desired result.  And please, do reach out to me and share your wins as well as any place where you would like some support.  I do enjoy hearing from you.

I am holding you in my heart.

Wishing you a November overflowing with prosperity and gratitude,

Verla Wade – Guiding Oracle
The Living Light Foundation

Do Something Significant in the Last 100 Days of 2020

There are less than 100 days left this year!  It’s time to start thinking about what you want to do with these remaining days of 2020.

When I realized how close we are to the end of the year and how few days are actually left, I started remembering what I have achieved this year, and what I still want to accomplish as the year is coming to a close

2020 has been a huge reset – for all of us.  It has ushered in an unprecedented necessity to relinquish much that we hold dear – and open to new possibilities and new ways of doing things – not because we wanted to, but because we needed to.

Resilience is the word of the year, and with that, I now invite you to look at what you have accomplished this year with your resilience – as you adopted new levels of resilience in areas you never imagined you would need resilience!

Here are some recommended steps:

First: Return to the beginning of 2020 and review your year.  As you do this, acknowledge yourself for all the small and large things that you have done well.

Second: As you review 2020, please notice who you were in January and February, and who you are now!!!  You are different!!!  What are the visions and dreams you had at the beginning of the year?  Knowing what you know now, and who you are now, how can you revitalize and re-visualize your original goals into creation?

Third: After you have acknowledged your successes, it’s time to re-set your vision for the remainder of 2020.
•    What still needs to be done this year that is meaningful to you in your life?
•    What “lights you up” when you think about accomplishing it?
•    What impact – personally or professionally – is yours to make, that perhaps you have been avoiding?

It’s time to embrace the harvest energy of the coming fall months and turn it into productiveness in our lives.

Here are the statistics: 80% of the work gets done in 20% of the time – let’s make this last 20% count!

I am holding you in my heart.

Sending You Love and Light,
Verla Wade – Guiding Oracle

How Quickly Can You Adapt & Move Forward in Your Life? The Power of Resilience in Your Life.

I have been cultivating resilience for a number of years now – embracing it, acquiring it, and weaving it into my daily life.  As resilience and I have become friends, welcoming it into my being, I came to understand that it provides a strong part of my foundation for sustaining joy and achieving fulfillment.

In the face of Covid-19, re-integration into social settings (or not), vaccination (or not) when its available, all the questions about the safety of our children, the importance of their education, and invaluable experience they receive from being with others their own age, and the plethora of questions, challenges, adjustments, and life changes we are all addressing on a daily basis, there is something to be said for making friends with resilience.

Resilience is a wholistic approach to life – it is about how you view life, and how you handle life’s stressors – both the positive as well as the negative.  Today, I would define resilience as:

  • 1st –the capacity to recover quickly from difficulty
  • 2nd – the ability to maintain resilience is a measure of how balanced you are in your life

The benefits of resilience are many.  Foremost, it allows you to move away from, as well as heal patterns that compromise you, while at the same time, moving towards greater strength and adaptability.  This gives you the versatility to adapt to what’s happening and coming at you now, vs wasting time and energy fighting against what is.

The synonyms for resilience are wonderful qualities to nurture and embrace as well:

  • Flexibility (vs. rigidity)
  • Strength (vs. weakness)
  • Hardiness (vs. fragility)
  • Adaptability (vs. fragility)
  • Endurance (vs. weakness)

So resilience – my word of the month – perhaps truly, my word for 2020.  And particularly now as the we head into the end of the year – Resilience and Loving-Kindness – for Ourselves and Others. Perhaps resilience so we can have loving-kindness!!!!

Those of you who live within driving distance of me are aware that I am offering a special series of healings right now – The Resilience Package – to address our needs and the needs of our DNA as it adapts and builds resilience to our new life challenges.  Please contact me if you have questions.

PS: If you live in Western Washington State and did not receive my special offer email, please let me know and I will get that to you.

I am holding you in my heart.

Sending You Love and Light,
Verla Wade – Guiding Oracle
The Living Light Foundation

Developing & Maintaining Resilience

As The Living Light Foundation prepared to re-open for private sessions and in-person classes, I found myself contemplating who I am now and the benefits of the lineage work that we offer people and businesses.  Five words kept coming to the fore front of my meditations – “the Great Work” and “Sustainable Resilience”.

I would like to share with you several things I have learned about resilience during our time of isolation.

First, it is as easy to live from a place of faith and gratitude as it is to live from a place of fear.  And it requires a conscious choice.  Choosing gratitude over fear, allows you to draw upon peace, which then results in faith.

  • Faith that there will be another day and it can be good.
  • Faith in my family
  • Faith in myself
  • Faith in my health
  • And the list continues

Second, grace is given a day at a time – by God – for the now.  It is for today only, not tomorrow.  When you are grateful for today, it expands into grace and affects the quality of tomorrow.

Third, it is important to get outside of yourself and be a blessing to someone, so God/the Universe can send blessings to you.  Your being and doing creates the pathway and the flow.

Fourth, living life alive takes courage – often the courage to choose faith over fear in the moment.

And finally, in re-entering active life, it is not enough just to come back – we must return stronger, better, and more resilient as a result of the last six months.  It’s no longer a matter of bouncing back – because what many people seek to bounce back to no longer exists.  We are re-entering an entirely new environment, and therefore we must be prepared to bounce forward.

In light of this, we have put together a special package of healings and activations – the Resilience Series – which have never been offered before in this combination or at this price point.  Please stay tuned – these packages will be premiered in the next few weeks.  We are also offering classes for the first time on Zoom, as well as teaching in person our beloved lineage favorites (in limited numbers following recommended social distancing safety pre-cautions) starting in August.

I am holding you in my heart.

Sending You Love and Light,
Verla Wade – Guiding Oracle
The Living Light Foundation

Health, Vitality, & Wholeness: Its Time to Thrive (vs. Survive)

In today’s environment, nearly everyone is focused to some extent on the quality of their health, vitality and wholeness.  While some are focusing on improving, others are working at regaining a level that seems to have diminished over time.  As well, there are those who are naturally healthy and determined to sustain and enhance.

Maybe you have tried:

  • Diet
  • Exercise
  • Other advised medical options

And yet these techniques have often not yielded the desired result.  There’s a reason for this.  The quality of our health is affected by our environment – both outer and inner.

The foundation of our health is driven by what is happening within our unconscious – the underlying attitudes and beliefs we have about ourselves – just below the surface of our awareness.  This includes what we say to ourselves, which then replicates outward reflected by what we say about ourselves to others.  How we think, our emotions, and even how we feel about ourselves, at our inner-most core level, all affects our health and vitality and our ability to move past undermining patterns and habits.

Kabbalah has answers on all levels about our health, offering a vast range of knowledge, wisdom and understanding.  Never has this information been more applicable than it is today as we endeavor to know ourselves and strive to constructively adapt to our rapidly changing world.

Health, vitality and wholeness is an enormous topic, affecting us as humans, and at the forefront of our consciousness.  And, if I were to encapsulate it into a few words, I would say that health, as well as lack of health, is really about the human heart and its place in the vast universe.

In addressing this topic, we each have to ask ourselves some questions:

  • What is health?
  • What does health mean to me?
  • What is the level of health that I desire?
  • Where am I doing well and where could I be doing better?

And in answering the first question, ‘what is health?’, it may be easier to answer it from the perspective of ‘what is lack of health?’  What we do know is that our health, or lack thereof, is that it affects us on all levels – physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.  In fact, Kabbalah would reflect that lack of health is a result of separation and disconnection with the Divine!

Working with the Kabbalah provides a path of profound transformation.  One of the fruits (results) of this transformation is the ultimate healing of the human soul.  Kabbalah is above all a means of joining with the Divine.  And that health – true, sustainable health on all levels (physical, mental, emotional, spiritual) –is achieved by reunion with the Divine.  Please don’t let this reference to the Divine turn you off if you are not acclimated this way in your life, because like I said, Kabbalah brings about the ultimate healing of the human soul.

Kabbalah tells us that there is an ingeniously mapped plan for each person on earth.  The purpose of this plan is for each person to be the creator of their life and in charge of their life destiny.  As you ascend up the Tree of Life, you begin to gain mastery over yourself.  You gain clarity about what has been denied, suppressed, repressed, unresolved, and stored in your unconscious – things you have avoided and not dealt with, which often fester and eventually lead to lack of health, vitality and wholeness.  And once you have this awareness, you begin the process of cleaning out your emotional and mental bodies (the negative ego and subconscious, where you have stored all these unresolved memories).  This is the groundwork in order to achieve sustainable, thriving health and wellness.

Clearing and healing your mental and emotional bodies makes it possible for you to deal with life now – to respond vs. react.  And this allows you to master the energies at each level of the Tree of Life, which in turn can be utilized for manifestation and creation in Malkuth; thereby becoming the creator in your life who is actually in charge of your destiny.

You might well ask, what are the energies at each level of the Tree that need to be mastered relating specifically to health, wellness, vitality and thriving vs surviving?

  • In Malkuth, you learn about your outer environment, how it supports or drains health and vitality, and what changes need to be made
  • In Yesod, you become aware of what happens just beneath your conscious awareness – your underlying attitudes and beliefs, making the unconscious conscious so you can change
  • In Hod, you investigate your mind, how it thinks, and what it tells you, which you then tell others, reinforcing either positive or negative attitudes and beliefs, allowing you to repattern your mind, thoughts and speech
  • In Netzach, you explore how your emotions are responding to life’s circumstances and how your emotional attachments are affecting your quality of life, and how to detach and respond in new and empowered ways
  • In Tiphareth, you address balance and harmony, gaining insight and motivation to establish your unique true inner equilibrium
  • In Geburah, you learn how to enhance your courage, strength and desire to change
  • In Chesed, you open up to new levels of loving-kindness, forgiveness, and mercy for yourself and others

Each these levels on the Tree of Life directly affect your health, wellness and vitality and when balanced, will ensure your ability to thrive (vs. survive).

We have just launched online via Zoom for the first time, the 7-week Kabbalah Series – The Tree of Health, Vitality, and Wholeness: The Art of Thriving vs. Surviving.  This topic is both applicable relevant to our current environment as we work to understand Covid-19 and its effects on us and our lives.

If Health, Vitality, Wholeness and Thriving is a topic that interests you, you are welcome to attend these online classes.  They are being offered Thursdays @ 6:30-8:30 pm PDT and then again on Mondays @ noon – 2 pm PDT.

Now is the Time to Thrive.  We each deserve quality of life.

I am holding you in my heart.

Sending You Love and Light,
Verla Wade & The Living Light Foundation

Thriving in Spite of Loss

So many changes are happening so fast in our lives right now due to Covid-19.  Even as we are beginning the integration back into our world, aware of social distancing, wearing our masks, and making all the protective adjustments to our norm as we understand them, we are looking at the possibility of another resurgence of this virus, and returning to even more isolation.

As you know I have stepped out of my comfort zone (a single, professional business owner) into the world of dating – for the first time in a number of years.  This has provided me with both a very steep new learning curve and a rich opportunity for growth, similar to the new learning curve and growth that we are each experiencing with C-19.

I’m learning some new things from my dating experiences.  One I would like to elaborate on this week is that of loss.  I recently had a fulfilling developing relationship come to an unexpected abrupt end – that I did not see coming.  I cannot help but see the similarities between the end of this relationship and what many of us have lost as a result of isolation and the resulting adjustments we are now making in learning to live with this new world-wide virus, which we don’t yet fully understand.

Here is what I have to share with you from this relationship loss.

When we are having a break-up with somebody we tend to focus on “missing the person” vs. missing what the person brought into our life or missing what we enjoyed about the relationship.  In recovering my balance, my Middle Pillar, which has taken about a month, I shifted my focus from “I miss this person” to reviewing what he represented in my life, and brought to my life that I was missing.  And of course, included in this list were things like companionship, deep communication, spending time with someone with who there is mutual attraction….  You get the picture.

I discovered that when I focused on the specifics of what I missed (vs. the specific person), I soon was able to discern what aspects were about missing the other person and what work I still need to do for myself (to fill in missing pieces).  It is so seductive and easy to focus on “missing the person,” and waste a lot of time and energy in that experience vs. really discovering what experiences and qualities they brought to our life that we value and feel incomplete without.  Invariably, some of these qualities we can fulfill ourselves, and some do require another person!

Both these pieces of information are equally important.  First, I have proceeded to fulfill the qualities and experiences I can on my own.  Second, I now have an even better grasp on what it is I am looking for and what really fulfills me – ‘Know Thyself’.  And as a result, have been able to further fine-tune the qualities of who I am seeking as a partner – realistically.  When I stopped focusing on the man who was gone, and instead focused on all the wonderful things I had experienced in his presence, I started feeling a sense of relief.  It’s not about him, because other men can do what he did – can bring to me what he brought.  It can be any number of other people.

This is reflective of the unbalanced energy in Malkuth (the vice) – Inertia.  When we start to think that it’s only a specific person who can bring us these things to our life, we are dealing with the vice of Malkuth in relationships.  We are now stuck in inertia – the aspect of physics reflecting an object in motion stays in motion – and we keep digging into the pain, the loss, the lack, etc. vs. what did I enjoy so much that I am now really missing?  This approach to recovering from the loss of someone who you enjoyed puts you back in the driver’s seat, as well as helps you know who you are and what you are seeking at a deeper level.

I decided to share this with you because I feel the same is true about all that we have lost and are losing in the experience of dealing with Covid-19.  We are re-emerging into a significantly changed world and environment.

What have you have lost that you value?  For example, I really miss the experience of dining out, the experience of shopping and browsing at my favorite stores – seeing in person what is new (vs. purchasing on line), the experience of feeling safe and free to meet new people – either as clients or as dates – and welcome them into my sphere.  Applying what I learned from my recent dating experience, I have to ask myself, what is underlying the physical experience I am missing?   What are the benefits and qualities that these missing experiences bring to my life?  Once you start to identify the absent benefits and qualities, you can now begin to identify creative ways of fulfilling them in your life.

And therein lies the answer to regaining balance, equilibrium and peace of mind – the Middle Pillar – in your life as we learn to live with this pandemic.  It is the difference between surviving and thriving.  This is a worthwhile endeavor that will guarantee a new level of Know Thyself, and result in creating new, innovative ways to ensure your needs and desires are fulfilled.

I am holding you in my heart.


Sending You Love and Light,
Verla Wade & The Living Light Foundation

The Middle Pillar Today

The Middle Pillar has recently taken on an entirely new meaning in my life, which I would like to share with you this week.

Those of you who study and work with the Kabbalah know that the Middle Pillar on the Tree of Life is also known as the Pillar of Equilibrium.  It is the unifier, if you will, of the opposing sides of the Tree – force (archetypal masculine energies) and form (archetypal feminine energies).  It balances and embraces both approaches of the side pillars – unifying our faith and spirituality with our intellect and mind.

In our current climate of political unrest we are observing many people express emotion, attempting to gain a foothold on a new and unsolid foundation that has not been built by them.  While at the same time, we see these same actions, literally turning other people’s dreams and solid foundations into ashes.  One thing that life has taught me is that change is a consistent in this life.  But this current rate of change is breathtakingly rapid.  And alarmingly so for many parts of our established society.

We need change – that is certainly true.  There is so much that is not right.  So much that is not equitable.  So much that is not just.  And we don’t need to refer to skin color to make this point.  If you have been following my conversations, you already know the important factor I am going to talk about – the crux of the issue as I see it – is how we each treat ourselves.

The continuum of unkindness leading to bullying leading to brutality, and the fear that instigates this behavior begins within each of us and how we treat ourselves, which then replicates out into our world.  It does not begin outside of us.  When most people really hear and recognize their own self-dialogue when for example, they feel they have made an error, it is beyond harsh – in fact so much worse than they would every talk to another person.  Although this is a small example – and most people do this multiple times every day to themselves, with little or no awareness.  How we treat ourselves (and our inner child) cannot be changed by a political system, by a socio-economic system, by an employer, by a health-care system…  You get the picture.  If we want true lasting change, as adults, we have to change within ourselves.

In order to make this inner change, we each have to honestly re-examine ourself, our behavior and our results in our life.  What is working and what is not – by our own standards, not by what the world tells us:

  • Am I fulfilled?
  • Do I have joy?
  • Do I have peace of mind?
  • Am I able to sustain health?
  • Do I give and receive love in friendships, with family, with my significant other?
  • Am I a contributing member to society in a meaningful way to me?

We have become a world of avoiders and doers.  Avoiding what we don’t want to deal with and doing everything and anything other than what really matters.  Sure, a lot of us are really good people who do a lot of good things for other people.  But has that been enough?  Based on results, apparently not.  And, based on results, apparently our collective focus has been in the wrong place.  I would say to you that as a world-wide culture we have not been interested in empowering people to be, do, have their best.  Rather, we have created a system of havoc – the have’s and have not’s – and as a result of mis-placed guilt and misunderstanding, we have enabled the the very people we have wanted to assist, resulting in their disempowerment!  We have limited their ability to grow and become empowered humans.  Many of these same people are now demanding that they become empowered – but at someone else’s expense – the only way they know how!  And as the peaceful demonstrations are taking place, so much is being destroyed that constitute the foundation, dreams, hard work, and livelihood of others.

Ok – these are my thoughts – I own them, and I acknowledge that this is at best an intrinsically basic version of what really is.

Again, I want to bring this back to you and me, and our lives and what needs to change.  We all want change – we see it needs to happen.  But change from ‘guilt’ is not sustainable.  I suggest that we each ask and answer the following questions:

  • What do I need to change in my life?
  • What “stone or stones are yet left unturned” that I know need to be addressed for me to be more truly who I am meant to be/become?
  • What do I need to sacrifice that no longer serves me – vs. asking someone else to sacrifice?
  • Where have I been enabling myself to not be all of who I am?  (No one can change that for you except you.)
  • What would my inner child (or rebellious teenager) be demonstrating about if I would/could only hear and give it voice?

And this is where we come back to the Middle Pillar – the place of equilibrium.  The pendulum would seem to be swinging wildly and erratically right now – both socially and politically – to the left and to the right.  I know that many citizens feel this adjustment long over-due.  I’m not contesting the timing.  What I am stating is, that for this pendulum to come into balance – even a new, much needed balance –enough of us must find the Middle Pillar in our own lives right now.  What/where is that place in your life where you still do not have equilibrium?  I know mine.  It was just recently clarified for me – I had a new, wonderfully fulfilling, romantic relationship suddenly, inexplicably, end.  No fault, no blame, just over.  Breathtakingly, and painfully, over.  Much like what is happening to a lot of the familiar world that we have known – gone – never to return.  Almost overnight!

As I turned inside to restore some peace of mind for my sadness, and to help understand if possible “what in the world was happening in my world” and “what my part was in this”, what I have come to understand is that women in particular need to understand how to re-balance the Middle Pillar in our lives – from our full feminine aspect.  We need to balance the Middle Pillar our grief, in our loss, in our joy, in our creation, in our co-creation, with and without our partners.  We as women, must balance and rebalance our Middle Pillar.  As we do this both our inner worlds will stabilize, regaining sanity, stability, and peace.  And this will be reflected to all outside of us.

I invite each of you to focus with me on staying in balance with the Middle Pillar.  I trust you will find the results almost immediate, as I have.  If you would like assistance with this, please do not hesitate to contact me.

As well, I will be premiering for the first time online the 7-week series The Tree of Health, Vitality and Wholeness: The Art of Thriving vs. Surviving, exploring Kabbalah, what it is and what it has to say about having more vitality and true health in your life.  This teaching and conversation will be very helpful as we re-enter life and work after the period of isolation.

I am holding you in my heart.

Sending You Love and Light,
Verla Wade & The Living Light Foundation

Moving From The Defense Strategies of the Inner Child To The Individuated Sovereign of the Spiritual Adult

Last week, I found myself looking at all the aspects of Covid-19 that do not make sense.  While I’m not going to list these here, if you would like then, please contact me directly and I will be glad to send it to you.

The list of what is not making sense has been accumulating for the past few months.  This in turn has created and raised a condition of cognitive dissonance, leading to structural tension, and confusion resulting in fear.  When courage is used to explore this current environment, it can provide a fertile arena for the evolution of thought, insight, and belief.  Courage in this sense, refers to action in the face of fear.  And a tremendous amount of fear has been created through the dissolution of trust in our authorities and associated governments.

So here goes – here is my humble point of view.  Please take it for what it is worth.

I want to be clear: The fear is a result of the challenge between our childhood survival strategies developed as defense mechanisms and the individuated adult that needs to be emancipated into sovereignty.  In other words, we must take responsibility for the fear – it is ours and when we take responsibility, we are then able to start responding with courageous productivity, vs. victimization!

The two key questions we have to ask as the courageous adult:

  • Is the established guard here to protect or to control and dominate? and 
  • What do we need to do if we value true freedom?

The continued environment of separation, isolation, and lockdown in the face of surmounting questions, while our economic foundations are being challenged has created a veritable “powder keg” that various personality styles have finally begun responding and/or reacting to.  Finally, at the end of last week, the fear led to demonstrations and peaceful protesting, which quickly erupted into rioting, violence, and even anarchy in cities across the United States.

As I watched the reports coming in over the weekend with mounting sadness for what was happening in our country, I started thinking about the Hermetic axiom, as within, so without, and as without; which led me to reflect and question if what is unhealed for us as adults is now being reflected in our society.

I want to say that I am thankful that attention and awareness is being brought to social injustices that are happening in our country AND I am not happy about the behavior that has brought these awarenesses to the forefront.   No person deserves to be treated unfairly, judged unfairly, be treated less than, abused in any way.  Period.

Please understand that I am not advocating in any way at this time that you disobey the current local, state, and national laws.  What I am suggesting is that you look deeply at what is happening and decide for yourself what is true justice and mercy and what is true severity and imbalance.  In order to accurately do that, we have to start looking at our own personal history, the messages we received in our early formative years, and how they continue to affect each of us today.

Dysfunctional, harmful, abusive cycles and as well as ineffective co-dependent solutions must be changed.  Now.  If we don’t change them, then history will continue to repeat itself.  In order to transform these behaviors though, healing is required.

How to heal?  In order for the macrocosm to heal, the microcosm has to heal.  In other words, the country cannot heal until as a whole until its citizens heal.  We vote, we can protest (if we chose), we have numerous options available to us in this country of freedom, AND until we look at and heal the current hurtful patterns that are embodied and running within ourselves, things will not change in our world!  Until enough of us sort out these same patterns within of the wounded inner child, our country will not change.  Only a degree of change can be legislated.  True, real, sustainable change has to happen within each individual as a result of his/her willingness to heal, change, grow, adjust, educate, and embrace compassion and loving-kindness for self and others.

To begin with, let’s look now at the continuum:
demonstrating leading to peaceful protesting
leading to rioting (acting out),
leading to anarchy.
And let’s overlay this continuum in our own lives and our individual behavior where the unhealed inner child is involved, still influencing us and our decisions as an adult.

To Address This, Some Questions To Ask Yourself:

  • What part of you/me needs to be heard?
  • What part of you/me is on the verge of acting out/rioting?
  • What part of you/me does not have healthy boundaries and/or does not know when it is time to stop in order to not hurt ourselves, someone else, or someone else’s property?
  • What are you/I complaining about?
  • Who or what are you/I blaming?
  • What is your/my internal racial practice?  or
  • What is the racial discrimination you perpetuate with/on yourself? or
  • When, and where are you selectively applying good behavior (like selectively applying the rules of the law) to yourself?  When are you using selective application on yourself?
  • What are the acts of violence that you perpetuate on yourself?  (I find this happens for so many people when they perceive they have made a mistake – their self-talk is often quite ruthless and unforgiving!)
  • Where are you socially unjust with yourself?  (Again, I find so many people are very harsh with themselves when they perceive they have made an error – they are much harder on themselves than they would be on someone else for the same perceived error!)
  • What parts of yourself are you not able to trust equally?
  • Who/what are you aligning yourself with? and Is it worthy of you?

These questions are meant to help you (and me) uncover the unhealed and unaddressed wounds of an imperfect childhood and this temporary state of being we call “life”.

The answer is not about political uprising, rather its about political inrising.  I’m suggesting that you uprise by going within yourself and find the incongruencies before focusing outward.  Once we have recognized inconsistency within, addressed, and healed, then we are in a much better place to make decisions to help others heal and address the world’s needs.

What happens if we never reclaim ourselves from the wounded child imprint? What happens when the feelings surface when we reconsider allegiance to the big, looming authorities that we imagine could crush us if we don’t comply? This is the pattern of intergenerational trauma we see running through the lineage of humanity now, where unexamined trauma leads to a state of dissociation from self and intuition.  And the resulting outrage that the authorities are not taking care of us!  And indeed, it appears it may be true – it seems they don’t know how to!

Bringing Our Shadow to Light – It Is Time!

It’s possible that in this moment in time, our shadows are coming to light, (individually and collectively) meaning we are experiencing opportunities to see where and how we might be holding the very same energy of those we judge and condemn.  We are seeing what we are capable of doing when we don’t feel taken care of …in other words, the ways in which we unconsciously derive a sense of power through our need to be right, be in control, control others, and to otherwise imagine that we are important or superior to anyone else.  When we look at these areas of our life and relationship (wherever there is conflict in one’s life), we will be given the opportunity to own it or deny it.  When we own it, we see that the “enemies” in power are representatives of the suppressed parts of our collective and individual unconscious — the shadow within each of us that is disconnected from our heart.  We can simply choose to stop feeding that unconsciousness by telling the truth and staying always in our heart as we allow our awareness to expand and expand and expand.

Can You Trust Yourself?

When your body gets clear, it tells you the truth.  You will know – either you are healthy, or you are not.  You know how you feel.  Your “gut” tells you.  There is a quiet calm, a “knowing” – from the core of your being.  Take some time, give all your emotions that are up right now time to settle, and then check in – you will know the truth – your truth.

Does Your Truth Matter?

It may be an important time in human history to voice your truth.  A time to dismantle the illusion that only experts speak.  Do your research for the facts – the real facts, not just what agree with how you think and feel, and then find your voice, and share it without needing anyone to agree with you or support you.  Recognize that while it may be only your truth, that your truth matters – you don’t need to convince anyone – because it’s your truth.

What Role Does Faith Play Right Now?

First, there is not a knight on a white horse who is riding to save you/us.  There is not a politician, president, doctor, parent, leader who can make everything right for you.  You are the authority – either you are the spiritual adult in your life (or you are not).  This is an inside job for each of us.  It is time to adult, step up, step into your power, resolve your internal and external conflicts with radical self-acceptance, compassion, and forgiveness, and begin to explore what it would be to recognize that the system is just the system.  And that while it can always be enhanced – it will never be perfected.  That is the nature of systems.

Can we move beyond external forms of government and the illusion that we need to be protected?  That we don’t know how to care for and heal ourselves?  It may be time to find out, and it will require giving up all hope of being rescued, and finding that deep faith, trust, and commitment to supervising, governing, and leading oneself.  This can only be fully accomplished by addressing and healing the wounds sustained in our early life. as we embrace an ongoing commitment of becoming our own best self (using ourself and God as the only point of reference), regardless of everything else that is happening around us.

The truth is that we wake up when we are ready, and not one second sooner.  As we do, we discover that we need one other, to share the path, into the vast evolving universe and the ultimate experience of freedom, joy, and beauty – our eternal birthright.

Where To Go From Here

The seven ancient Mystery Schools have been assisting people to their greatness for thousands of years on this planet.  Today the Modern Mystery School is in over 35 countries world-wide, offering private sessions and teachings to help people find their path and assist them on their journey to enlightenment and actualization.

As we are now moving back into integration with society, may I suggest a few recommendations to support you – please contact me if you are interested about why I am specifically recommending these:

  • Renew your Life Activation and Full Spirit Activation as soon as possible (in person session)
  • Receive the Blood Healing and the Hermetic Path Clearing – they are particularly helpful right now (in person session)
  • The Empower Thyself Class and Initiation, Universal Kabbalah Ascension Class Series, and Healers Academy, are all classes that will enhance your ability to adapt and function in our now rapidly changing social structure.  (in person classes)
  • Sacred Geometry 1, Astral Travel, Journeys of the Spirit, Sacred Geometry 2, Sacred Geometry 3 (in person classes – all scheduled or being scheduled at this time – stay tuned)
  • Reclaiming Your Golden Child (private session created by me and can be done online)
  • The Tree of Health, Vitality & Wholeness: Thriving vs. Surviving – Conversations with Kabbalah (online 7 consecutive classes – scheduled to begin Thursdays, June 25 @ 6:30 pm and Mondays, June 29 @ noon)
  • A Day with Quan Yin (class developed, written and authored by me – stay tuned – will be offered online)

Please contact me if you are interested in information about or would like to book any of the above recommendations.  If you have been initiated by a Guide other than me, and they offer any of the above services and classes, please reach out to them – they are ready and waiting to serve you.

I am holding you in my heart.

Sending You Love and Light,
Verla Wade & The Living Light Foundation