You, the Light, and Fear

Last month we talked about Relationships and the need – both our need and the planet’s need – for us to grow up and become Spiritual adults.  In this conversation, we touched on fear and the impact it has in our lives.  This month I want to delve deeper into fear and how is disables our ability to mature and function as adults.

What is Fear?
Actually, I view Fear as False Evidence Appearing Real!  In our society today, we have very little true opportunity to actually use the original ‘flight or fight response of healthy fear’ to keep us safe.  As a result, much of the fear we experience has become something it was never meant to be.  In most cases, fear is no longer a trustworthy signal to keep us physically safe.  In fact, when most fear that comes up today has nothing to do with actual physical survival. It is either False, as stated above, or Drama – today’s accepted cultural response to False Evidence Appearing Real.

But what is it about False Evidence Appearing Real that so many people keep returning to it and using it as a staple in their lives?  Quite frankly, when we are in FEAR, even if it is false, we feel alive!  It puts us on the edge, tips the balance, and keeps us moving – in comparison to the inertia or idleness that so many people experience in their daily lives.  This momentum produced by fear and the direction we are moving in is often a rut – very seldom is it a path towards anything having to do with actually fulfilling our life purpose or destiny.

We might then deduce from this that F.E.A.R. for many of us has become a valued friend, keeping us “safe” from risks that would take us outside of our comfort zone!.  The reality is that it is outside this comfort zone where true fulfillment and joy lie.  In fact, F.E.A.R. is not really the safe friend that it masks as, but rather a technique that allows us to continue to sabotage our greatness and our potential!

Who is Afraid?
It is my experience in most situations with False Evidence Appearing Real, it is not the adult who is experiencing the Fear, but rather the inner child.  The inner child creates situations in the adult’s life to get attention and noticed.  Things like not paying the rent on time, not balancing the checkbook, waiting until the last minute to fill up the gas tank, always leaving late, running up the credit card beyond what can be paid back, or maintaining a constant high level of stress, fear and worry creating high blood pressure, headaches, injuries, feeling unloved or unlovable creating auto immune disorders and other related illnesses, ….  This list goes on and on.

These are things that a mature adult does not do – but an inner child needing and wanting attention, … well let’s just say, the child breaks through into our lives, and cause stress, commotion, and sometimes downright disaster.  Leaving a mess for the adult (that is present) to handle.

You may ask: how do I get past my Fear?
First, when you experience stress with someone and the resulting fear, it’s always a signal to be responsible and take care of the problem now.  It is a message to do something, and the longer you put it off the louder the message gets.  Doing something does not necessarily mean doing the easy thing, or fixing it for someone else.  It does mean doing the right thing.  This takes maturity, and can never be directed by the inner child.

Second, you have to realize that fear (like stress) pinpoints exactly what you need to focus on!  For instance, Are you afraid of success?  Kabbalistically speaking, fear of success is really inverted ego – the inversion of a fear of failure.  For example, If you never have to succeed, you never have to fail!  

Third, don’t turn away from fear (or stress, but rather, embrace them – embrace the heat they produce in your life!  Accept them and let them do their work.  Why?  Because one of the secrets of our universe is that it’s never a contest between you and your obstacles, or between you and your fears.  It’s always about you and God.  It’s about you and the Light and what it will reveal to you.  The obstacles and fear are only about how you will reveal the Light in your life!  You can be slowed and even stopped by stress and fear, or you can recognize that they are here to help you move forward.

What is on the other side of Fear?
Your life – the one that is really worth living.  The life that you dream about.  The life that you desire.  The one you are meant to live.

Sending you Love and Light,
Verla and The Living Light Foundation

Moving from Separation to Unification – Becoming Spiritual Adults


Relationships are a big issue right now in the planet’s spiritual evolution. We all want healthy, supportive, fulfilling relationships. And in fact, as Spiritual Beings having a Physical Experience, our relationships provide key opportunities for us to grow and evolve. They offer us unlimited experiences for learning and maturing. But depending on how we work with and respond to these experiences, some relationships until healed, can take us down a road of being stuck, co-dependency and repetition of old patterns from our past.

We are being called today more than ever to become spiritual adults — to move past outworn patterns that no longer serve our spiritual progression. And yet as we look around, we can observe many people who are clinging more tenaciously than ever to habits and behaviors that no longer work. Why is this more apparent now than ever? The answer is simple. Fear. Fear of change, fear that if we do change it won’t work, fear based on remembering someone who broke out of the mold and maybe it didn’t seem to go so well for them, etc. Our reasons for not changing, and letting fear rule in our lives go on and on and on.

You might ask yourself, where does this fear come from? For the most part, it comes from the unresolved hidden wounds and resulting fears of the inner child. Whatever has not been healed for the inner child almost always will be expressed in the adult’s life as a stopping place, block, resistance, reluctance, lethargy, depression, fear, etc. The list can be long. It is usually the child that is afraid and expressing the fear – not the adult! It is the adult, tho, that expresses the ensuing drama!

Where the family had unhealthy patterns the child experiences wounding and starts developing coping mechanisms, including people pleasing and perfectionism or the other end of the spectrum including isolation, and feeling like they can never do it right, or are not good enough, etc. And this carries right through to adulthood. As adults, we will have developed masks that we hide behind, but the original unresolved pain and fear of the child is still there, and is most often what is sabotaging our results. Apparent contradictions on the surface of things often show us that a deeper unity needs to be reclaimed.

Once we are adults, it becomes our work to take care of the wounding that persists for the inner child. But we can only address this if we are aware of it. Our work in becoming Spiritual Adults is to become conscious of the inner child’s emotional needs and wounding, and heal this, so that it is not constantly, or even occasionally, breaking through into and disrupting our everyday lives.

The Universal Kabbalah has been the single most helpful resource I have found, both short and long-term, in addressing the needs of the inner child as well as supporting people in fine tuning and moving into competent levels in all areas of their lives as Spiritual Adults. When you use the Kabbalistic system to heal what is amiss in your life, the result is Unification and Transformation. The system of Kabbalah moves us from a state of separateness, and being out of synch to wholeness and the state of being with God.

We need to learn how to be Spiritual Adults so that we can reduce the suffering in our own lives and the enormous suffering in the world. The Universal Kabbalah is a tool that can help you do this. I invite you to consider joining me for the new series The Tree of Health, Vitality & Wholeness: Evening Conversations with Kabbalah.

Sending you Love and Light,
Verla and The Living Light Foundation

Living a Life Filled with Beauty and Harmony

Last month we talked about ‘Nurturing More Beauty In Our Lives’, and this month Beauty is still at the forefront my consciousness. 

So much beauty is surrounding us in our lives as summer is coming to its fullness in July.   As a Kabbalist I see this beauty, and it reminds me of the Sephirah Tiphareth on the Tree of Life.  Tiphareth translates as Beauty and Harmony.

The Beauty we are talking about in Tiphareth goes below the surface and reflects back to us a life well lived.  But often, the reflection we receive in our daily lives is not that of either beauty or harmony.  Why is that?

Kabbalah will tell us that if the reflection is other than harmony, we are not in alignment with our true self.  The life we are living is not what we are here to live.  WOW.  That may be a big bite for some folks.  But honestly, it is a course correction of many small steps.

Here is how it works:

First step – who am I?  This is the question we must answer in order to live a life in alignment with our life purpose.  Unfortunately, we are not taught how to answer this question in our education systems.  Quite the opposite, in fact.  Kabbalah, though, comes to our aid and starts helping us answer this question almost immediately as it helps us recognize and align with our most true inner nature.  Sure, that means we have to let go of some things.  These ‘things’ are usually attachments that really don’t serve us.  The truth though, is that as we become aware of these attachments, we can relax, release, and get on with the life we are here to live!

Second step – what do I want/desire in my life?  Not what I have been educated to want, or what I have been told I want, but what do I really what?  What brings me true, lasting joy?  As we expand the moments of true joy we experience more harmony and beauty.  Joy, beauty and harmony are always inter-connected.

Third step – how do I keep moving forward in the right direction?  In other words, I am not stuck in inertia or repetition of the same thing.  As you know, if you keep doing the same thing, you will keep getting the same results!  The answer to this question is knowing what your purpose is.  Or at least, having an inkling of what your purpose is.  When you have some clarity about this, then the motivation follows to keep moving forward.  It is no longer a struggle – you will have direction.  You will be excited to go to work – because it is aligned with your purpose/destiny.

These three steps can be taken every hour every day in achieving beauty and harmony and a life well-lived.

  1. Make sure you are moving in alignment with your life purpose.
  2. How do you know what that is?  It will unfold as you are in joy.  The more joy you have, the more on track you are with your life purpose.
  3. Keep moving… forward.  The way to ensure forward movement is by living a balanced healthy life style that addresses all aspects of you – physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual.  We are spiritual beings having a physical experience, and so how we take care of ourselves here in the physical body results in the quality of experience we are having.

I hope you have a marvelous July filled with Beauty and Harmony and invite you to share with me how this is expressing itself in your life.

Sending you Love and Light,
Verla and The Living Light Foundation

Nurturing More Beauty in Our Lives

I have been appreciating the beauty that spring has brought to the Pacific Northwest recently as so many trees, bushes, bulbs and plants have been in bloom. This has taken me on a deeper journey of wanting to cultivate a more expansive garden on my patio as well as in my life.

We all know that for beauty to be real, it has to go beyond the surface. A plant cannot thrive and bloom if it does not have the nutrients it needs to sustain its life. And this is true for both plants and people.

What are the ‘nutrients’ that we need then as humans to nurture beauty in our inner lives? Here are some items I find to be important:

  • Courage – to tell ourselves and others the truth. This helps us maintain clean, healthy relationships, even if it is not always easy. To do this we have to have clarity, honesty and integrity.
  • Clarity – about what is most important, otherwise we can tend to get sidetracked on less important projects or things that really don’t matter in the long run
  • Honesty and integrity – with ourselves and others. This requires being able and willing to tell the truth. To do that, we have to know who we are – who we really are!
  • Knowledge – of who I am in all aspects of my being. Know Thyself is the edict of every ancient mystery tradition.
  • Stamina – to keep going even when we want to stop. Often, stamina requires faith in the unknown.
  • Belief – In God, Goddess, Creator – and organizer of our universe. The vast cosmos is a system of remarkable frequency, resonance, and organization.
  • Faith – that there will always be a way to turn lemons into lemonade. A little bit of humor here as a reminder that faith is a necessary ingredient to see things through and find the next phase of our life, making sure we have a life well lived. We don’t have a choice about what happens to us, but we do have a choice about what we do with it.
  • Understanding – that we are made in the image of God and there is a plan for each of us to achieve this lifetime
  • Forgiveness – of ourselves and others as we live large and make mistakes. If we live within the comfort zone, and are afraid of making mistakes, we will never realize our greatness.

I hope you have a wonderful June and enjoy the external beauty around you. And I invite you to join me in consciously uncovering, discovering, and expressing the inner beauty of you every day.

Sending you Love and Light,
Verla and The Living Light Foundation

Live Life Alive!

Live Life Alive!

‘Live life alive’ is my personal by-line. I use it to ensure that I am fully engaging in what life has to offer – in all of its forms and presentations.  And fully engaging means being awake, aware and making conscious choices.  It does not mean that I chose everything that life offers.  In fact, the clearer I am about my life purpose and life work, the more selective and discerning I am with the choices I commit to.  Frankly, we just don’t have the time to spend on things that pull us off track from what we are here to do!

This being said, a key piece of our work here is to find joy for ourselves and to bring joy to others.  The Mystery School teaches that inherent in fulfilling our life work is joy – both for ourselves and others.

Living life alive involves full participation in all aspects of life.  It is nearly impossible to have sustainable success when we ignore a key piece or relinquish responsibility for something that ultimately has to do with our success and happiness.

There are other emotions that do come into play here with this approach to life – fear being one of them – fear that we don’t measure up, fear that we don’t know how to do it right, fear that we don’t have the right education or training, just plain FEAR.  And, it will stop you if you let it.  It certainly will suck the aliveness out of your experience of life.

An acronym for fear that I ascribe to is False Emotions Appearing Real.  In other words, most times, what we are afraid of is not a reality unless we prove it to be so!

How do we get past this? Feel the fear and do it anyway.  There is a great book with this title and I highly recommend it.

I’d like to invite you to fully live your life alive in May and let’s share our wins with each other.

Sending you Love and Light,
Verla and The Living Light Foundation

Exercising Choice as We Create Our Desires

 

One of the premier teachings of the Mystery School is that we have choice. Kabbalah expands on this saying that each person and event – everything in the world – is a touchstone to test your freedom of choice; so choose wisely!

There are so many places in our lives where we can apply this teaching about choice. I would like to point out first, when one believes that they have choice, they feel empowered. And I am the first to admit that we don’t always love the options presenting to choose between; but that does not mean that there is not a choice to be made! And if we procrastinate long enough, we soon discover that ‘no choice’ is a choice!

As we move through April though I want to bring our focus to what you want to create this year. You have heard the saying “what you focus on expands”. Because this is so true, it is vital that you become aware of what you are saying aloud, and even as important, what you are thinking in your brain. The challenge with our thinking is that the brain hears everything as ‘truth’, so it is up to you to be the ‘guardian at the threshold’ on what thoughts are being accumulated and repeated, because they will find manifestation in the physical realm of your life in some way.

As the guardian of what your brain is thinking, you become aware of what is (and has been) going on behind the scenes in your mind based on the results in your life. This awareness gives you both the ability to make new choices and the option for change. Until this moment of recognition, you do not have that option! One thing becomes very important here for this choice to be available to you: the negative ego must be in control – no projection onto others for what is happening in your life, no suppression, guilt, shame, etc.

And this is why every valid spiritual path recommends a practice of ritual, meditation and prayer to assist us in aligning our physical being with that of the creator. This alignment and regular practice helps us raise our frequency to a level that we will not attain on our own. Using these tools regularly, one can align with the creator and our life work/life purpose, experiencing joy and fulfillment.

Let’s talk now about your desires for this year. If you are like many people, you have already consciously set many of them in motion and may be seeing the new seedlings emerge. A great analogy is that you are the gardener and that the seeds you have planted with your thoughts and desires are developing.

A wise gardener will take time to recognize these new seedlings for what they are – did they come from conscious positive manifestation, or are they from an unconscious or unmanaged brain? And as the new plants emerge, the gardener has time to continue to formulate the plan for each seedling thereby ensuring its eventual success. At the same time, some seedlings may need to be removed, as they are no longer in alignment – again, this is all a part of you being at conscious choice. It may be as simple as you no longer put your time or focus in this area.

In other words, your mind may have been fertile with many good ideas that were planted, but now is not the time to jump on each new manifestation or seed that emerges. We don’t have to cultivate every result of the work that we have started. From the alignment gained in your meditation, ritual and prayer, you can continue to define with assurance that which is most in alignment. Nurture and care for this with love and dedication. You will have a bountiful harvest that is truly an expression of your Life Purpose.

I’d love to hear about how you are expressing conscious choice.

Sending you Love and Light,
Verla and The Living Light Foundation

The Nature of Light and Reclaiming our Crown

I have been contemplating the nature of Light and its role in our lives.  Of course, we want a good amount of sunny days – especially here in the Pacific Northwest.  But I am talking about the Source of Light.  In the Mystery School we call it the EnSof and it is described as everything and no thing – everywhere and nowhere – the Limitless Light.

This is the Light of Creation. Genesis refers to it: “… and God said ‘let there be light’”.  And with this, creation began.  From here we can infer that Light is at the Beginning – that it is the Source.

If we overlay teachings from Kabbalah, and the Tree of Life here, we find this Originating Light above the Tree itself – in Ain, An Soph, and Ain Soph Aur – 3 distinct egg-shaped ovals that surround the Sephiroth.  This Sourcing Light then floods into the top Sephirah on the Tree called Kether.  Kether translates as ‘the Crown.’

The Tree of Life is said to hold the original divine blueprint for humans.  So it can be said that at the beginning of our physicality we possess a Crown of Light!  And this elevated, illuminated, actualized way of being is what philosophers and spiritual seekers have been striving to attain throughout the centuries.

I find it interesting that when a baby is born through the birth canal, as its head appears, it is said to be crowning!  As the newborn takes its first breath, the soul enters, and each baby claims their crown of light!  In other words, we each begin life owning our personal crown of creation – we are alive with Light.

The question becomes what has happened to our crown?  Maybe even more important is what has happened to our self-esteem such that we don’t even know we have a crown?  And if it is true that we have a crown, when and where did we misplace it?

The Universal Kabbalah holds the treasure map and instruction manual that can be utilized to assist us in attaining the original divine blueprint and reclaiming our crown.  When we use Kabbalah for this purpose there are many benefits and gifts (Kabbalah calls them fruits), including remembering who we are, where we came from, and what we are here to do.  This gives the true seeker the clarity of purpose needed to wholeheartedly engage in fulfilling their Life Purpose and Destiny, which results in true JOY and FULFILLMENT.

I invite you to contact me for a deeper discussion on The Universal Kabbalah and if this might be helpful and illuminating for your life at this time.  A good place to begin might be the Tree of Joy 5-week series starting April 2.

Sending you Love and Light,
Verla and The Living Light Foundation

Blooming Where You Find Yourself – A Key to Fulfilling Your Life Purpose

Blooming Where You Find Yourself – A Key to Fulfilling Your Life Purpose

Like the purple crocuses pictured above, we are each uniquely suited to bloom where we find ourselves.  Snowdrops and crocuses come up and bloom through the snow, where other flowers can’t.  There is an analogy here to each of us.  We can “bloom where we are planted” as the saying goes.   The key is that we need to consciously create our environment where we can flourish.

This brings to mind that we each have a Life Purpose – something that is exclusive to you, and it is up to you to manifest it.  Interestingly enough, only through the manifestation of your Life Work will you experience fulfillment and joy.  Everything else is unfulfilling, mundane, and short-lasting.

Living your life purpose does not mean that you will not have to work diligently – it means that in the process you will experience great momentum and motivation to do your work.

Many people find that one of the things that slows down their spiritual progression and effectiveness with their Life Work is inner child pain and issues that have not been addressed and healed.  A good indicator that some of this work remains unfinished for you is that you will find yourself hitting the same wall (or ceiling) and not making much progress past it.  It has been referred to as the comfort zone.  I call it the ‘lack of clarity’ zone.

When we are clear about what we want, what our desires are, what our patterns and behaviors are that stop us (including inner child wounding), we can fully engage in our Life Purpose work.  In other words, we can bloom where we find ourselves, and create an environment around us that ensures our ability to flourish.

Every class, activation, and session provided by the mystery school is focused on empowering you to fulfill your Life Purpose.  The Universal Kabbalah is particularly helpful in supporting you to flourish in your life. We have two Kabbalah Ascension Classes scheduled for Seattle in 2018 – one staring in March and the 2nd starting in September (which I am leading).  Let me know if there is a specific area you would like support.

I invite you to join me this spring in further creating an environment in which you can flourish and bloom where you are.  You probably can sense that it is time.  And even if you are doing well, there is always more – more fulfillment, more joy, more clarity, more of what is important to you.

Sending you Love and Light,
Verla and The Living Light Foundation

Welcoming in the New Year – A Time for Rebirth and Renewal

Welcoming in the New Year – A Time for Rebirth and Renewal

When I was young, the image of the past year leaving was Father Time, old now and hopefully wise, bringing with him a lively, smiling Newborn, representing the New Year and all it can offer us.

I feel its important to remember that what happened last year, while it set a course, does not have to dictate what will transpire as we go forward.  It is instrumental that we set a vision (or goals) for the next year, (and our life) and that we don’t let these ideas become ruts that we get stuck in and create new limitations and excuses!

We are eternal spiritual beings having a physical experience.  
•    What would you like to create in 2018?
•    How would you like to experience your creations?

These are important questions to consider, because each of us is part of actively creating our life and life situations.  If 2017 was really good and you want to sustain and create more – great – you already know what to do.  If 2017 left something to be desired, then ask yourself, what change do I desire? And what do I need to do to make this adjustment?

Take all the wisdom you have gained up to now (your Father Time) and give yourself a fresh new start – aligning fully with who you are and what you are here to accomplish this lifetime.  Let me know how I can support you to have the best 2018 possible.

Wishing you a wonderful New Year, where you create what you truly desire.

Sending you Love and Light,
Verla and The Living Light Foundation

The Truth Sets You Free – Maat & Her Feather of Truth

The Truth Sets You Free – Maat & Her Feather of Truth

As we move into December, I am working with the Goddess Maat in preparation for the January 12, 2018 Egyptian Ceremony and Meditation.  What an amazing Goddess.  My understanding of the Egyptian Gods and Goddesses is that they each had a lifetime here in the physical – of course thousands and thousands of years ago.  Now each of them holds a specific archetype that relates to humans and can help us in our daily life.

The Goddess Maat represents truth and justice.  She embodies the true meaning and practice of integrity for the bigger picture, not just the here and now.  Her symbol is the ostrich feather, or any feather for that matter.  As I contemplate her feather, I feel a sense of lightness and freedom and I wonder what the connection is with truth, justice and integrity.

In the Egyptian tradition, is said that at the end of your life when you cross over, your heart is tested on scales for truthfulness against the feather of Maat.  Anubis, Thoth, and Tehuti (who records the proceedings) are all present.  Anubis asks you two questions: “Have you found joy in your life and have you brought joy to others?”  I love this story, and find it particularly meaningful this time of year.  Perhaps true, sustainable, and lasting joy in our lives and others is deeply related to living a life in integrity and truth.  Why not?  What could be more truthful than I am experiencing joy or I am not!  Something to think about….

But whose truth?  And who or what defines integrity?  The truth and integrity of Maat is defined as being Maaty!  It is said about Maat that we each have an inner Maat.  So then the answer to these two questions is based on your deep inner knowing in alignment with who you are and what you are here to do this lifetime.  Many people never get very far in contemplating these things.  I trust though if you are reading this newsletter, then this is a journey you are consciously on.

As we tell ourselves the truth, although it may be related to past pain and suffering, we do not need to bring that forward into the present, other than to heal.  It is important that we are not defined by our past and our wounding and in order for that to happen we have to forgive.  Our progress is limited though until we fully forgive – both ourselves and others – for what has transpired.  And, as we heal, the truth brings joy and “truly” sets us free.  We are no longer a victim of our past or anyone in it.  Maat is always there to help us see the truth from the bigger picture of our life and contracts, and to recognize and appreciate the gifts we have received.

This time of year is about celebrating joy, birth, life and our friends and families.  I hope you have a most wonderful Holiday Season.  Please join us Friday evening, January 12, if you are interested in a mediation ceremony celebrating the magick of Maat.

Sending you Love and Light,
Verla and The Living Light Foundation